manipulated play

2007-04-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

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2007-04-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

this post is dedicated specially to SHI TOU.

west sun says her name is now SHI TOU cos she thinks she ROCKS. andand you're not HOT! lol!

andand if you're shi tou, i'm zhuan shi okay! diamond worth more than stones! (:

2007-04-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

lol okay i'm quite high now. i don't know why. anaesthetic wors. hahaha.

anyways. i've moved to another blog. ask wor. (: teehee. MIGHT still blog here sometimes. or maybe not. sheesh.

like so easy. but then again, no one's fault. just be happy. yay. (:

2007-04-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

omg my knee is damn screwed. i can't even walk properly now. ):

dinner with my aunts and cousin. food was greattt. woah my cousin wants to bring his girlfriend(i think) to have dinner with us. but then his parents disallow. so he didn't even turn up for dinner. woah. was actually hoping to watch free show. HAHA.

bloghopped and read something which pisses me off. as i was about to post one whole chunk of shit back, someone reminded me that i'm already 16. and i should BE like one already. so i shan't bother with INSIGNICANT people like her. but still, i'm shocked and disappointed at what a hypocrite you are.

I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn thats sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

2007-04-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

since one year back.

i'd wished i didn't not blog-hop.
i'd wished i didn't read old blogs.
i'd wished i didn't see that.

my every hope has seemed to die.

you have no idea how damaging the word can get.

2007-04-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting for a miracle.

joanna msged me at twelve plus last night waking me up. and it scared me cos i thought i thought.. haha

jojo went and took away my pe period where i can sleep in the library. ): quraisha went on about how she's a murderer. went court after eating during recess. was so damn funny la. this house oppose the motion of _______ =x haha. CYY started crying when she don't know how to do her math question. all of us was shocked.

misses wors.

I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

2007-04-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

we both know we can't stand each other now.

cihui's so blur. she actually didn't realise that we have physics mid-year until i pointed out to her? lol. haha. chi was so fun today. oh, there's a new econ assisstant teacher. wah suck ah.

pizzahut with grace and sinyi. imagine for the whole meal, all their sentences are: you mei you ________ de gan jue. T_T haha. coach bought us fruits! (: played match. was fun la. we are the ballers, jiayou, jiayou, jiayou!

i saw the truimph look on your face and we both knew you won.

wahaha, irritated them with this song during training.

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything.

2007-04-02T22:36:00.001+08:00

was so pissed this afternoon for having to move all the chairs and tables by myself, and amelia wee went to parkway. ahhhh. but after the whole oral was so funny. jokes and jokers. haha. i'm so smart. teehee.

anony! you know the sun rises from the east today!

i'd like to say, i was left with no choice. i wasn't in my place to decide, get it?

2007-04-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

lol! so fun. i conned eleanor, kellyn and joanna into believing i got into a car accident and in hospital. haha. and they wanted to come visit me! tried to con jiaxin, she replied that she's in the ward next to mine, and my doctor very hot. T_T hahaha. and tricked lipeng that i got new stead. haha. and she believed. but sy don't believe! sian. okay i'm getting super high now.

tomorrow think miss lui's gonna change my seat to the front. which means, i can't do illegal stuffs under the table already. ): and i think i'm being very immature. i want to keep my econ now, to spite mdm goh and miss lui. ahhh. what should i do.

she's no you.

2007-03-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

pictures yesterday!

POKEEEEEE.

retarded grace!

they are the ahma zui!

the numbers of straws represent our number!

14- clara, 5- me, 7- aisyah and 11- shurui

~~act~~ cute!

HEEHEE.

relay runners plus weijia!

jiaxin! who you looking at huh! lol

meet the parents today. sucks. drop drop drop?

the day has lost it's significance.

oneyear.

2007-03-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

gay lunch with teammates and juniors. super high that they thought i was drunk.

sports day. rained. aisyah and i ran around the whole stadium trying to find mdm goh to dance with her. but she was gone already.

anyways nice run, eleanor, kellyn, daphne, elizabeth, divya. and grace, jiaxin and yiying, we've done our best. so yeah. blame it on the stupid person who stood in my lane, obstructing my run. i can't stand it. it's just in a split second and we lost our third position to badminton. anyway, xiaoqi told me after that, i overtook 3-4 people. so yayy. although we got second last for 4by400, i'm still happy cos i finally finally beat that woman.

i can't stand those people who are so selfish. anyways glad that we have sorted out our differences already eh.

i'm gonna die at such a young age. tomorrow. ):

let's go back
back to the beginning
back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

2007-03-29T19:52:00.000+08:00

before assembly the principal and vice principal came to our class to talk about econ results. which makes me think, should i actually continue econ? afterall, i have stopped listening since 6 months ago.

assembly. we were the only ones who cheered for lemon. haha. and they dared me to cheer for blueberry which obvious i didn't dare. HAHA.

pp with raihan after remedial. got my new calculator. bought presents. i'm SO broke now. ): and we had a pact. if we manage to do better than term 1, i will get her the spongebob socks for her belated present and she'll buy me famous amos(:

sports day tmr. ))): jiayou people.

2007-03-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

zomg. i hate her so much. out of so many people, she only separate our group. i can't believe i ever said she's good. and physics just pisses me off more. ahhh.

oh. and i did my dare today! haha. the shock on her face was priceless! haha. okay, another dare to go. yiying's the most retarded person on earth cos she don't dare to go home cos there're people. T_T the sports day plan this year suck to the core.

tuition later. ): oh good luck cdiv for the friendly against CHIJ tp tmr. (:

2007-03-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

embarrassing day!

NUMBERONE: was drenched today. so decided to blow myself dry before i go for physics. at the other side toilet, bluberry lollipop came in, imagine the shock on my face! LOL!

NUMBERTWO: joanna was sharing some gossips with me. so i said, jo! i got a lot of questions to ask you later haha. then at the same time, johara said there'll be a spa practical tomorrow. and she heard what i said. so she was like: so samantha! you have alot of question to ask isit. about spa? tell you pay attention in class already then never, now tmr spa then got alot to ask. the class burst out laughing la!

NUMBERTHREE: during recess, i wanted to tell weijia: na tian ni zou de zao(that day you left early), but then i said 'na tian ni zao de zou' then they were like are you damn sure you get a1 for chinese! wahlao. in the end, thanks to me they are confused about the zao de zou and zou de zao.

geog remedial was sian-ded. someone asked me how do i actually survive sitting at the corner of the class. cos apparently, i do not talk to anyone except a couple of thankyous and sorrys when i move in and out the place. well. haha.

pizzahut after school. lol. my uncle joe's so cute. he came and visit. lol and he called me jie jie. T_T ohhhh. did i say during physics, i was staring and staring at ms J then suddenly a vampire image came to my mind! haha. watched too much twins effect already.

VAMPIRE VAMPIRE! ((:

2007-03-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

lol. i finally finally revealed my identity. haha. no fun already.

back to homework. =X

2007-03-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

spent my whole morning and afternoon reading if tomorrow comes. and it's darn nice. so hooked on it can. and it's like the first time i read finish a book so quickly.

was so pissed with that ~~dumb insensitive~~ wongyingquan just now. heehee but somehow later, he actually said something that made sense to me for once. yeah, so thanks wong.

all or nothing.

2007-03-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cos I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cos you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
Nowhere inside for me in your life

Cos I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

i can't believe i'm actually waiting. haha

2007-03-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

econ test first period. and i didn't know about it. so anyhow tikam lor. chem spa's so screwed. ): went for econ remedial for 20 minutes only haha. i didn't do my dare today. sheesh.

packed chicken rice and coffee for coach to cheer her up. the five of us shared 2 packets of chicken rice among ourselves. haha. ~~weena and i have telepathy.~~ we're unique! (: fun playing with coach. gossipgossip. then it started raining. weijia left. the rest went up to second level to train. ran up and down the staircase, jump jump. physical training was sooo tiring but it was fun. i'm drenched in my own rain can. eeyer miss coach. ):

soooo tired. they are scaring me with all those mid-year stuffs. shall go study. well, hopefully. mid-years in a month's time! =X

2007-03-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

i feel like a fool.

stayed in class during pe. cihui and vyl nagged and nagged about studying hard etc. lol. went bubble tea shop after school to stone for a while. then decided we all want to save money so went home. SLEEEEEEP.

i kinda get what's going on now.

2007-03-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

bad day.

school sucks. well, it never rocks. jojo says she's gonna call my parent. T_T andand i can't stand my math teacher any longer. ahhh.

wanted to go for physics remedial but stalk aka chermaine says if i pass one of the papers i don't need to go. so in the end, i didn't go. then my aunt called and say my grandma's in the hospital. so went to hospital to visit her. sighh. too tired to go for the qian xi vs homeunited game already.

i can't help but think about it. if i did not persist, would i be happier?
i'm afraid i can't take this anymore. fuck it.

2007-03-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

led a superr pek chek day today. every small little thing seemed to be able to piss me off.

physics sucks, econ sucks too. what the hell. after school was quite enjoyable though. went bubble tea shop to eat. weijia, jiaxin, wee and me shared this cake, yumyum. they claim i'm weird cos i eat funny stuffs. andand i don't eat vegetables when i eat subway. heehee.

tuition was quite fun and slack. yayy. it's raining now.

deafening silence.
save me.

2007-03-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

i'm so frustrated and pissed with everything around me now.
andand i can't fucking seem to know how to do my work.

2007-03-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

had less than 4 hours of sleep last night. sian.

handed in my chinese compo. lin lao shi: wah. so guai ah. tian yao ta xia lai le[the sky's gonna collasp already] T_T

life is sad with remedials, especially amath. sian ahh.

zomg so tired can. i want to SLEEEEEP. but there's so much things to do. ): ahhhh. and i just remembered i forgot to hand in my ss. so much for chionging during eng. ):

SLEEEEEP.

2007-03-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

zomg. i haven't finished my work. and i'm gonna start SOON. school's starting tomorrow. ): yay slack driver and durain.

and i feel so guilty now. i'm helping two people hiding things from each other, to prevent something bad to happen. yet. i don't know if i'm doing the right thing.
tell me, someone, just tell me how am i supposed to put things right?

2007-03-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

okay. since there're so many complains, i shall take away the password thingy.

JIAXIN STOP COMPLAINING! not my fault! heehee.

[editted]

zomg. i tried to start on my work. but i ended up here. arghs. can't concentrate. damn. ):

2007-03-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

been slacking the day off. sianxz worxz. piles of work waiting for me to do. and school's starting in 3 days time. )):

don't bother anymore.

2007-03-15T16:53:00.000+08:00

just came back from school. i, for once, was early. 4 hours of amath really a killer. saw my dearest durain! she asked me to go school tomorrow for econs. hell no, i'll just drop dead can. so tired. should i drop econs? hmm.

went parkway alone. cos apparently shermaine tay PSKPSPQ. heehee. go figure. walked around from 12-1 alone like a total retard while waiting for clara and jiaxin. kfc-ed. szeying came. couple t-shirts. tsktsk. lol!

i was half an hour late for the stupid counsel thingy thanks to jiaxin cos she can't decide if she should buy the adidas shirt not. the green adidas bag is nice!

went back school to see mrs yeo. one and half hour talk. T_T oops. and i used some people's names. so jiaxin, clara, annabel and joanna, if she ever hunt you down, it's not my fault! heehee. =X

don't give up even you had failed once.
but what if you tried and tried, nothing you hoped come out of it, do you still continue?

2007-03-14T21:30:00.001+08:00

i'm late for amath for half an hour again! andand this time i swear i really thought it starts at 830! anyway we were let off an hour earlier.

homed. then out again to cchms with clara to watch juniors' friendly. nice game. (:

eeyer, tomorrow will be a longggg day.

2007-03-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

happy sweet 16 eleanor! (:

just came home. tiredd ahhh. went half an hour late for amath. after that accompanied qsha to see her. damn. she scolded me for nothing? physics was so crap. jojo was pmsing like shit. let us off half an hour late.

chionged home, bathed then went to meet rachel at east point. and i forgot to bring my ezlink. walked around and decided to get kiddy stuffs for eleanor. haha. happy colouring! ((:

was about to go eleanor's house then rachel decided to go home to get her shorts. so we cabbed to her house and back again. lost our way to eleanor's house. we walked one whole big round can. watched the ppt they did for eleanor. so nice. haha.

introduction game. was funny cos eleanor's father kept testing the guys on our names, ccas, etc. they played twisters. their positions were so funny can. joked and cut the cake. was fun.

so tired. don't feel like going tomorrow. sheesh.

i'm nothing near good.

2007-03-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

haha. jiaxin's influencing me with her ZOMG. sheesh.

can't wait for tomorrow. 3 hours with slave driver and 2 hours with mad woman. sheesh. T_T

i just need one more chance
to share the sunset
our one last romance.

2007-03-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

yayy. i'm a happy girl today. (: heehee.

cheerup grey!

2007-03-10T16:39:00.000+08:00

thanks anqi singing buddy! and your post. (:

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now
but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you
how I want this feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset
our one last romance

why do i feel so disappointed.

2007-03-09T20:47:00.000+08:00

joanna and quraisha didn't come to school today. so sian. and durain didn't come in again. that's so SAD. haha. i didn't manage to buy tk doll cos i've not enough money. ):

training. szeying kaisin and sohhwee came for our training. weather was so hot today can! anyways, we can opt not to go training anymore. went bubble tea shop after training. si gay cai ~~miao~~ niao let us hear the indian guy singing in the end by linkin park. was so funny can! and melissa was so gay can! lol.

ohoh! i forgot to say this. jiaxin, clara, sinyi, grace and me formed the BT(banglah team) HAHA. BT YEAH BT WOO BT JIAYOU!

cheerup girl!

just trust me this once?

2007-03-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

guess what she said just eats into me.
it WAS really the last one.
no more, this marks the end.
regrets;
don't make me feel worse. don't make me start regreting over that damn game again.

2007-03-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

i spent 45 mins on an amath question last night, only to realise i copied the wrong question. so dumb right! kinda forgot that there's a econ test today till vyl told me in the morning. but luckily mrs chia came in today, and talked. so it was postponed. haha. and aisyah told me about durain's fling in vietnam. woots.

cabbed to ahs for finals with aisyah, yiying and shurui today. cch girls got second while cch guys got first. i'm like the only loner tkgian supporting for cch. yayy. saw lipeng there. her hair's so fun to mess with now. went home first cos of bad cramps. ):

anyway we didn't manage to get to play in the nike league. ):

is for the best same as what you want?

2007-03-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEEEETIE 16 RACHELTAN! ((:

yayy. dear mdm goh is finally finally coming back tomorrow. (sense my sarcasm) school's quite erm interesting. HAHA. three days in a row already. someone's getting envious wors. HAHA. sheesh. irritating man. i just forgot to bring my notebook la. so i'm going to school early in the morning at 7 to show her my notebook. T_T and she said she don't like it when shermaine tay and i sit together for remedial. SHEESH.

training was tiring at the first part. footwork, repeated high knees 3 times? launches. it's a good thing we didn'tdo standing broad jumps. but it was replaced by 5 sets of different jump-stops and pivoting. after that was quite okay.

i feel sad for myself man. i'm going back school 4 days next week. trainings, lessons and counselling. wow. ): haha. anws, AISYAH! I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE HER THERE RIGHT?!?! can't wait to see her tomorrow man. T_T

2007-03-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

fire drill is dumb. really. got a shock this morning that i'm supposed to see the counsellor. oops. haha.

went to vjc with annabel and rachel. yayy. we three got top for our heats. good job(:

it's those little things you do-
they mean everything.

2007-03-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

physics is pure boredom please. cheonged ss during free period for emath. borrowed annabel's physics file. omg, susan tee just rock please. her notes are super good can. i totally malu-ed myself in front of ms wong during ss. uhhuhhh. =/ anyway, thanks for the crystalball. (:

heats. saw liying. but she left soon. was feeling so jumpy before 4X100m, and not to mention gay. heehee. i have soft hands, for a basketballer, i'm unique haha. kinda pleased with the relay. good job people. (: 4X400m. i'm sorry eleanor, kellyn and daphne. i don't think i had put in my best to run. really sorry. i'll try harder on the actual day.
200m tomorrow. my most fear event. omggg. howhow.

after running the relays, my hamstring?(thats what victoria said) very pain. thanks wee for stretching. went macs. and walk walk in pp after heats.

it ain't the run nor stress.
i ain't invisible you know.

2007-03-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

happy sweet 16 chelsea!

i feel horrible and uneasy. yet i don't know why. school's starting tomorrow again. and i'm going back to school almost everyday. what's the point of holiday?

o'level is starting in october. while others start on 29 oct, mine's on 23 oct. so early. but apart from the higher chi paper, my second paper ends on 2 nov which is like 10 days away from the last one. sian.

`slow suicide.

2007-03-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

happy birthday lorraine!

how far do i have to go,
how far do i need to go,
to make you understand?

2007-03-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

why do you have to compare me with my senior. so what if we are both from your form class and the same team? but mind you, she's a TRIPLE SCIENCE student for god sake. of course she's smarter. so now failing test means i have to be put down by words like my senior's smart and i'm not smart at all. ha. but yet who would believe if i said i studied. i'm going score good results in the mid-year papers and show you how smart i can get huh. fuckyou.

i appreciated mr john and mrs hoy for being concern. but i certainly don't need to see the counsellor la. haha.

training cancelled. went to netball finals instead. was so exciting can. omg i don't like damai people. okay pl was worse that time. haha.

supposed to go qing's house with amelia but she pangseh-ded me. so went alone. annabel was there too. omg i hate waiting for cabs. cabbed to my house with annabel after that. then had dinner, she went off for tuition.

i really can't stand it. that's why i really hate this place.
ineedyouherewithme.

2007-03-01T20:35:00.001+08:00

that dream, it seemed so real.

two free periods towards the end of the day. yayy. usual hang out at bubble tea shop with jiaxin clara and yiying.

ohoh. nicole is going shanghai for six months. so if you ever read this nicole, TAKE CARE & BON VOYAGE! ((:

2007-02-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

fever last night. ): and it's not cos i don't eat veggie HOR!

english debate today. nice speeches.(: headed down vjc for heats. drenched in the rain. damnit. think my fever's gonna worsen or something. and they even made the sec1s run in the rain and they themselves have umbrellas. wth.

went parkway. tania's so zhong se qing you can! asked her to meet me, come and tell me she's dating. T_T studied at macs. yesyes. the guai me. heehee. yayy. father fetched. so don't need walk in the rain.

hana kimi so nice today. OMG WU ZUN'S SOOOO HOT! and and he definitely DON'T look like my the other best friend can!lol. andandand he wore number 12 when he played basketball in the show. YAYY.

just a silly girl with her hopes too high.

2007-02-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

feel so sick now. so cold and throat hurts like shit laaa. must be screamed too much. haha. =/

didn't sleep well last night. ): first period in the morning, mdm goh came and took ms lui's period. T_T two econ lessons la dumbbb. chem was interesting for once. haha.

went watch game with jiaxin, clara and yiying. lol. was so exciting. stupid yiying accidentally spit 100plus on my face. arghs! then after that, they went tampines while i homed. heats tomorrow. sian ahh. ):

i feel so dumb please.

2007-02-26T22:30:00.001+08:00

all i can hear in the silence that remains
are the words i couldn't say.

2007-02-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

omg i think my grandma is serious about moving house. =/

school's boring as usual. now our class moved down to 2e5 classroom. ahhh. i don't like to move. ): amath remedial. sat with shermaine tay. kept singing hana kimi songs with her. heehee.

pizza hut with jiaxin, yiying and clara. YUM YUM. but it burned a BIG hole in my pocket. broke. ): went to bubbletea shop. i did my homework there. so guai. heehee. ~~conned~~ no, yiying VOLUNTEERED to treat us bubbleteas right? heehee. szeying came after that.

i'm so freaking bored. JOJO! GET WELL SOON! ((:

2007-02-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry. BUT.

i realised how screwed my results are. i just need ONE mark each to pass those three subjects. damn.

tuition-ed in the afternoon was so boring can. and i can't remember what i want to blog. i'm so not looking forward to school tomorrow.

i'm nothing near good.

holding on just to feel the same.

2007-02-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

can't you see i want you
by the way i push you away?

and when i push you away
that's when i need you the most.

2007-02-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

supposed to meet clara at 1220. but i was late. who knows she's even later than me can! went to novena. ate kfc. met up with jiaxin, szeying, weena, kaisin, sohhwee.

went to coach's house to bai nian. haha. played black jack. yayy. won alot of sy's money. cos i'm her jinx! heehee. talked. was so funny la. jiaxin was like imparting her LBG skills to me. but i'm not cut out to be one la. mrt ride was so funny. kept staring at the M18 people. heehee.

2 hours long ride of LRT, MRT and bus. and i lovelove long bus rides.

2007-02-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

[editted]

legacy was so boring. need to write good things about your classmates. but the problem is i didn't talk to at least 7 people throughout the past year. like what to write?! anyways, after the commotion happened today, it made me think. what if s.

went to vjc for heats. lol. after that went with jiaxin and liying to watch some performance in the theater. but in the end we missed it. then went home.

i need to get over it man. anyways, it's just heats right.
i failed myself damn badly this time. fuck it.
went out for dinner with my aunt and cousins. so boring. lol. rushed home to watch hana kimi. WU ZUN! heehee.

Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

2007-02-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

thought amath was in first period. went school early to chiong amath. but then goh came in and took the period. got back paper. last. woww.

went bubble tea shop after chem remedial with amelia, jiaxin and clara. szeying came afterwards. saw lipeng! lol. but she left soon after.

100m tomorrow. muscles are aching like hell, how to run? ): and i'll be up against victoria chou again. siannn.

it's a beautiful lie; it's a perfect denial

2007-02-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 TO TANIA! ((:

deleted the previous post.

got back physics formative. surprisingly i passed without studying. yayy. but i still failed overall. which means i failed 5 subjects already. yayy. T_T spent the whole emath lesson reading wu zun's blog. HOT AHH! heehee.

training was tough at the first part. lol. afterwards was kinda okay. went bubble tea shop after that. szeying went too. haha. LBGs. heehee.

What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn’t take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

2007-02-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

went to 2nd aunt house in the morning. was labelled as the anti-social. well, i don't know how to socialise with them when we only see each other like once a year? so we decided to play daidee and black jack. haha. won only 8 bucks while some won twenty over bucks. my uncle, being the poor banker, lost like forty over bucks la! lol.

went to ivan and kelvin's house. then headed to aunt ivy's house. lol. esther and gladys so cute! gladys who's only six, asked if i have any boyfriend not. lol. and they kept taking my phone to listen to songs and take photos. haha

`torn apart.

2007-02-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

had a fun day but not exactly a fun night.

esther, gladys and aunt ivy they all came in the morning and i was still asleep! lol. then aunt fang they all came too. the most surprising thing was aunt jess, uncle jack and joe came to visit too! which they haven't for god knows how many years. haha. my lil uncle joe was so cute. he's my uncle yet he calls me jiejie. and he's like 7 years younger than me! lol.

played daidee. wanted to win enough money for a cheesecake. but too bad. in the end, i only won like ninety cents?! and jack won like 4 plus over dollars? they said my cheesecake ended up in jack's hands. ):

went to aunt angeline's. lol. baby ervin and bro's so cute can! heehee. at night went to tampines mall with my parent to catch just follow law. not bad la. the funniest part was the indian guy asked the boss: eh boss, how to spell VIP huh? HAHAHA. omg la! anyways, ONGJIAXIN! the shoes you chose for me broke down on me today! lol.

you have someone else, you don't need me.

2007-02-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'm rottinggg, decomposingggg. fungus are about to grow alreadyyy.

haha. everyone came to my house to bai nian. but being the anti-social me, hid in the room and watched hana kimi. heehee. =x

kept eating today. and drank alcohol. haha. feel so piggy. but nevermind. diet after new year. heehee. anyways, it's the pig year! yayy. I WANT CHEESECAKE!

soooo cute right!

HAPPY PIGGY YEAR AND HAPPY PIGGING OUT!

the more simple it is, the more complex it gets.

2007-02-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

we spent our whole live waiting.
but till then, i realised, we all have been waiting for nothing.
what an irony.

2007-02-17T19:23:00.000+08:00

had such a boring day. jiaxin went to msia today. shi boring de wors.

hana-kimi for the whole day. ahhh. wu zun! love!

some pics here:

jiaxin, me and clara

pretty girl & queen!

twit worxzxz!

HAPPY CNY EVE PEOPLE!

2007-02-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

don't read if you like to criticise so much.
cny celebration. 4/1 won the 1st and 2nd prize for decor and singing competition respectively. yayy! woots!

went bugis after school. somehow or so, i regretted asking her out. things didn't go the way i thought it would.

misunderstanding and disappointment.

2007-02-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

the song wo yi zhi dou zai is stuck in my head.

slept in library with jiaxin. (haha. sounds wrong!) was so tired man. haha. chinese was so gay! i started gaying with lin lao shi. and she was afraid of my gay-ness and sa jiao-ness. haha!

cut my hair in the afternoon. then kfc-ed with jiaxin and clara. cam-whoring. haha. went to clara's house. watched hana kimi. WU ZUN! <33

i realised that this year's valentine's really sucked. not only for me, but also for three other people. sigh people. CHEERUP EH! ((:

translated version of wo yi zhi dou zai:
i've always been waiting behind you,
hoping one day you'd turn back and look at me.
i gave you my smile, hoping you'd be happy,
and give me all your sadness.
i'll cherish everything regarding you.

i've always been waiting behind you,
waiting for that one day you'd feel me there.
even if i'm as insignificant like dust in your world,
i'll still give you all my light and energy.

2007-02-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

ups and downs.

what the heck is with the 'no effort put in for physics'. was so pissed/sad/disappointed during recess can! then received a msg afterwards which kind of made me high. haha.

ponned physics remedial after school. when i returned back to court, the juniors told me lipeng came and gave my vtine's day gift. haha. so i ran all the way outside and find her. luckily i found her and passed hers her. thanks babe! (:

training. was let off one hour early cos of the flowers we gave coach. haha. the last part was so horrible can. coach dropped jiaxin and i at mrt station. went tampines met her to pass her her present. had long john. walk walk around.

)):

anyways. thanks all for your presents! i love the candy machine!

2007-02-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

omg. i hope i'm able to pass amath this time. ahhh. i bloody failed my chi can! like wth. ): jojo's moodswinging lately. T_T

anyways, i screwed my econs up quite badly this time. i almost wanted to hand in a blank sheet of paper. pp-ed after econs. bought vtine's day gifts. and bought coach a bouquet of sunflower. ahhh. I WANT LILIES! or tulips. heehee.

they came over to my house to wrap the stuffs. but i haven't even finished like half of it la! ahhh.

hope.

2007-02-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

my grandfather's coming back again from china.

physics formative sucks. okay. i spent the whole of last night watching my wu zun(: HEEHEE. slp in class is sooo shiok ah! haha. amath remedial is really boring.

went look for amelia. chatted for quite sometime. then went rec trg for a while. surprisingly xinxuan went too. HEEHEE. then went off with amelia to bubble tea shop. she left soon, leaving me alone there for one whole hour. so sad. )):
ONG JIAXIN YOU BETTER BE GRATEFUL KAY! I WAITED THREE WHOLE HOURS FOR YOU! I WANT BUBBLE TEA! HEEHEE!

ask or not?

2007-02-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

so tired. was msging until 2plus last night. yawns.

went somewhere near clara's house for breakfast today. saw clara there too. haha.

tuition sucked today. almost went bonkers with amath. ahhh. physics formative tmr. amath and econ on tuesday. suck la.

andand i'm too hooked on HANA KIMI! WU ZUN! YAYY. LOVES!((:

2007-02-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

bugis with jiaxin and clara. saw this couple on the bus on my way there. they kept making out throughout the whole bus ride can! and i don't dare to look straight so i couldn't see them. haha.

bought 2 more shirts and one pair of shorts. and changed my bag. haha. okay! i should stop buying shirts already! heehee. towned to watch the 3on3 games. liying joined us for lunch. had fun teasing. made her treat me ice-cream. but being the nice me, returned her the money eventually. and she still claimed i'm weird! the best thing happened today: i saw..............
GERALDINE!! YAYY! omg omg omg! she was at the 3on3 place, then i started taking out mine, szeying's and liying's phone to take photos. HAHA.

somehow liying made me say happy birthday to S. and somehow or so, she suddenly appeared at taka too which kinda surprised me. everything seemed to go funny after that can!

met joell later near her house then came back for tuition.

2007-02-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

OHMY GOD. BEDOK NORTH GOT DISQUALIFIED AND DUNMAN HIGH FREAKING GOT IN?!?!
we're so freaking wasted. DAMNIT.

anyways. i just remembered it's been ONEYEAR woman! HAHA. =DD

2007-02-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

actually had a long post in mind. then again, forget it. i'm lazy.

was so damn confident. yet. failed by 2.5. damn it.

thanks amelia. (:

congrats to the sec4s. vann! when are we going to celebrate for you?! YOUR TREAT! heehee. =DD

2007-02-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

the long gone fucked up feeling is back again.
sorry that i'm acting so abnormally tonight.

2007-02-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to hate amath. and ECONS. i don't understand mdm G you know. i have damnit explained so many times that i didn't go for her stupid remedials cos i had competition or was on MC. she had to go on ranting and ranting, asking me to see her for times just for my absence for her remedials WITH valid reasons. damn it, just shut up. and the reason why i refused to go to you for some damn help cos i know after that, you're gonna criticise me for being whatever ~~fucking~~ reasons you can come up with.

was feeling so low after econs, good thing rachelTAN was there. (: the gary speaker we had today was so damn gay can! and he brightened up my day! i find his talk highly entertaining and amusing! although mrs cheong obviously thinks otherwise.

bugis with jiaxin and clara. shopped for so long then finally found a white dress. (yesyes. sam wears dress too)

tmr. A1 ahhhh.

2007-02-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

brought up to heaven but then to drop down to hell.
~~fuck it.~~

I THINK I'M AUTISTIC!

2007-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

i knew they will talk about me being gay carrying amelia's bag! and when she was making announcement today, i was half expecting to hear something. haha! free period for geog, busy chionging my ss.

i think jiaxin is over-panic about fri! haha. chi test is a killer man. so difficult. i can't believe that ms wong let me off when i told her i forgot to go for remedial. amath is getting more and more boring! emath ST is quite easy. amath remedial is so ZZZ.

weijia and i didn't train. went out pack chicken rice for coach. grace is super the gay today can! bubble teashop after training. saw the her today. stunned. felt so uncomfortable can. arghs. yet the irony is, we don't know each other!

and all i could do is to lie.

2007-02-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

i can't believe that i failed my geog so badly. and i failed by 2 for combined humans. suck. and i totally missed one whole subtopic for chem.

had an enjoyable afternoon with qingyuan, amelia and annabel. haha. omg la. i'll just drop dead if whatever we predicted today happen tomorrow. 20-odd missed call dialled. haha. can't wait to see if amelia make any blunder tomorrow. lol. she walked the same way with me home and then she walked all the way to east shore. T_T haha.

omg. 3 days more to 9th. can't wait.

i feel damn unappreciated.

2007-02-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

school today. i failed econs! okay. expected la. but but i was quite surprised that i actually passed my ss! just hope for the best for geog.

i hate having chem lab before recess. ms ho will just drag till half the recess is gone. went to 3rd level look for amelia after school. haha. omg. she's such a retard. i bet she's damn happy la. then geog remedial after that. hate the contours and everything. yuck.

cheerup! (:

2007-02-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

i still feel so sick.
don't feel like training tomorrow. ):

and i don't know what's with me either. talking about rumors eh.

2007-01-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

it's enough.
and like you care.

2007-01-31T21:18:00.000+08:00

slept for almost the whole day in class. so shiok. physics paper is SAI. physics remedial was so sian can.

cabbed down to watch DHS and SAC game. S fell. haiyo. SAC won in the end, by 4 only! that means, we are so wasted. bused back with sinyi, clara and jiaxin. went to bubble tea shop. si gay cai miao and charmaine joined too. jiaxin and si gay make a good pair, gay gay er ren zhu. laughed until want to die. then father fetched me home.

omg. cough and flu. wanna die already.

you're just so unfathomable.

2007-01-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

happy birthday joanna!
happy birthday quraisha!

nice game today. so violent me. fouled 3 times! i rarely foul can!
coach: don't use your hands and chests to defend. why you all all like to use chest to defend? your chests that great meh. LOL.

thanks annabel, amelia and qingyuan for supporting. (:
~~ain't specially for me anymore.~~

2007-01-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden, i feel so screwed for tomorrow. be it geog or game.
it'll be so pathetic.

2007-01-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

wow, seems like it's the first time i'm home before 3 this year. so tired. fever came back last night. ): haha. woke up at 704 this morning! almost late. slept through most lessons today. haha. went to sickbay during emath. skipped amath remedial, went for lunch with joanna in the canteen. haha.

tampines tomorrow. tk jiayou jiayou jiayou!

2007-01-28T20:14:00.000+08:00

feel so weak now. hope by tuesday, i'll be fine.

haven't started on my econ graded assignment and have to hand in first thing in the morning! geog elect feel so screwed. ):

2007-01-27T14:55:00.000+08:00

running high fever.

it sucks to be sick and know that no one will be there.

2007-01-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

econ test. came out inflation la. didn't know what the heck was that. was reading my notes last night and came across this line 'bad money drives out good money' haha.

training with coach today. haha. was funny esp the shooting part. it rained, so we mugged inside. then when it stopped, we came out and played 4on3. that's when weijia fell on me and sprained her ankle. poor her. we took turns piggybacking her. so good service seh. haha. take care la woman, i don't want to be alone sitting outside court during games. (:

homed with annabel. came to wait for her sister and father.

some people just don't know how lucky they are. learn to appreciate.

`now that she's gone.

2007-01-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

dear mdm g has reverted back to her mean ways. sigh. HAHA. studied with jiaxin and annabel after chem remedial at the usual bubble tea shop. (:

i'm prepared to flunk econ tomorrow. ahhh. just hope they will only test on commercial and central banks.

andand i can't wait for 9TH FEB!

`cry me a river.

2007-01-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

i feel so disappointed. emath result's so shit. and the physics paper that i studied hard for turned out so crap. just hope i'll pass.

lunched with jiaxin and annabel after the physics test.

If it's your favourite teacher= You will listen in class. but If it's her favourite and some teacher who she always screams JOJO = She never listen in class. How funny can Samantha be... (= quoted from joanna's blog. haha. i do listen kay! except she gets too boredd. haha.

so sleepy.

ceased to exist.

2007-01-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

No warning of such a sad song
Of broken hearts
My dreams of fairy tales and fantasy,
Were torn apart
I lost my peace of mind
Somewhere along the way
I knew there's come a time
You'd hear me say I'm sick and tired
Of always being sick and tired

2007-01-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

bedok north game today.

kfc-ed with grace and xuejun after that. xuejun claimed that our team's violent when she is herself! haha. waited with xuejun for her stead for a looong time. haha. went to interchange with grace.

thanks annabel for the drawing for the whole team. (:

sorry mates. i know i missed a lot of chances today. sorry.

2007-01-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE HAPPIE SWEEEEET 16, LI PENG! ((:

what makes you think i'm not sick and tired of being the useless one.
but where do all the goals, determination and beliefs go to?
what's the point when all gave up. what can I do? what difference can i make.
so what's worth fighting for.
what's worth living for.

~~i hate it when you put me down like i'm so fucking useless.~~
`empty inside.

2007-01-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

team!

on the way to dunman high game.

leong and me.

melody and me.

left: naturally cute. right: act cute. HAHA.

jiaxin and me at the landfill place.

4e2 plus the extra me there.

who who?!?!

singing buddies!

MC10.

random pic of me ~~acting~~ cute. (:

ohoh. happy birthday syuhaidah. (:

2007-01-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

screwed up.
tried so hard, yet failed.
wanting to make you proud, yet got look down upon.
yet you're not the only one disappointed, i'm too.

2007-01-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

was so damn sleepy today can. slpt in goh's lesson. haha.

my father came and watch my game today.(: came back to school after game for SST. sai. one of the jnrs asked me to shut up and attituded us like crap. ahhh. fitness after that. all our limbs were wobby.
yet i played like crap in the first quarter.
seriously i think she don't know how lucky she is. sigh. take care of your ankle, leong.
so what's the use of me when i don't even dare to attack.
so dreams eventually don't come true.

2007-01-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

NE trip today. the only extra 4/1 girl with 9 others 4/2 people. haha. and we call ourselves MC10? haha. the trip was quite fun la. 45 mins ferry ride. anqi and i went mad singing jia gei wo. haha. pity jiaxin who sat next to us. haha. and i think i'm quite prone to injuring my leg. my ankle still hurts after wearing sy's shoes, i fell on my left knee yesterday, i knocked my right knee today when the bus braked suddenly. ahh.

thanks for the sweets! (:

jiayou tmr mates! we can do it.

2007-01-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

i really feel like chopping her head off when i see her arrogant face. ahhh. and S's face too. i'm changing my mind about the cute thing. PUI. andand i stupidly scaped my knee when playing. ):

thanks annabel, jana, shi hua, amelia aka sai, patricia for supporting!

anyways. nice game today. extended time. although it's only one ball away, but we did our best already. jiayou for the next three games! (: tk jiayou!

2007-01-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

happy birthday raihan!

i swear i'm damn lucky la. ms lui didn't ask me why i skipped remedial. okay, no more ponning! ehh. hopefully. haha. lunched at pizzahut with dumBEL, jiaxin and clara. i'm so broke for the next three days can. ):

thanks tania and jocelyn for your box of sweets and chocolates. really sweet 16th. =DD

Dunman High tomorrow. venue changed to bedok cc. jiayou mates! tk jiayou!
i want to get into next round. BADLY.

2007-01-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

editted.

i'm sooo gonna die tomorrow, of ms lui and CAs.

thanks joell for the water bottle & eleanor&people for the shoe bag! (:

2 days more. stress ah. defence, defence, defence!

ahhh. damn it. i lost all my ss notes. i can barely stay awake, my eyes are closing. did i ever express my hatred for ss and emath? someone come and throw ice water on me. booo.

2007-01-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

cca promotion today. my god la. as usual not much are interested. ahh. alley-ed, monkey-ed. haha. hafiza came back! haha. didn't see her for sometime already. then played badminton with clara on court. haha. then watched dance performance at the void deck.

lunched at pp pastamania with annabel. eeyer. szeying only brought one pair of shoes to lend jiaxin. i want to borrow basketball shoes man. i hate mine. then homed and tuitioned.

oh. fixtures' out. yayy. i predicted correctly! i guessed there'd be a match on next wednesday, and really there is. haha. okay, i still think the grouping sucks la.

fuck it. stop ordering me around like i'm your dog or something.
i'm not. it's sickening.

2007-01-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

omfg. i don't know if i have done the wrong thing telling you.
does it really make it easier for you?
ahhh. but then so, what done, couldn't be undone right?

Keep Holding On

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

So far away I wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side I will fight and defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong

cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Hear me when I say, when I say
I believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is meant to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeahlalalalalalala...

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

2007-01-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

two amath lessons in a row. class committee was selected today. hee. wasn't even paying attention at the briefing after school. was playing with pooh bear and the milk bottle. chelsea's so lame. haha.

pizza-hut with weijia jiaxin and clara. crapped so much. weijia and i decided to join sajc's swim team in future. HAHA. then went back met the rest, training was cancelled. so the four of us ran 20 rounds round classroom block. then played 4on4 at court in the rain. weijia came over, for a bath, then ate dinner. soon she left for her tuition. she's so gay laaa! cca promotion day tomorrow. mac breakfast!

oh thanks annabel for the milk bottle of mashmallow. (:

the dumb song is stuck in my head la.
zui ai ni de ren shi wo,
ni zen me she de wo nan guo,
zai wo zui xu yao ni de shi hou,
ni que bu shuo yi ju hua jiu zou.
HAHAHA.

2007-01-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

In a dream,
Will you give your love to me?
Beg my broken heart to beat,
Save my life, change my mind.

2007-01-11T15:51:00.000+08:00

finally, i'm home early. have been staying back in school for the whole week. and the best thing is, there's no one at home. peace and quietness at last!

was kept back for the whole of recess just doing some dumb experiments. and scalded my finger too. ): assembly was kinda dumb la. SST's postponed. b'div starts next week, haven't get our fixtures yet. eeyer.

just one more hit, i promise i can deal with it.
shutup bitchES.

2007-01-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

i like ms lui's lesson. (:

training was tiring. two-man three-man five-man fast breaks were a total flop. feel so shi bai. bad passes, travels, etc.

thanks sinyi, jiaxin and grace for your presents! 'ten-carat diamond present.' haha. 50 plus packets of bee-bees, sweets, sanchais and 3 pads with notes on it. HAHA. ohh. and thanks for the shirt. ((:

groupings out. suck like hell please, why are we so suay. SAC, DUNMAN HIGH, BEDOK NORTH, TAMPINES.

read too much into it.
i don't wanna play. everything's going so crap. the hope of getting into second round seem to die off. least screening sense. crap.

2007-01-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

my birthday cookie!

birthday ice-cream!

feel so pek chek for almost the whole day. eng ca and amath ca was alright i guess? though i had no time to do the graph. wastedd. swensens with clara, jiaxin, weena. feel quite gay with the balloon, but it's cute. (: then just came back from dinner with family. haha.

thanks to those who wished me. weena for her handmade sandwich, eleanor for her birdday msg and clearsil notes (a box of clearsil pimple cream which consists of 3 notes inside without the cream) more at her blog, clara&szeying for the toydog, lorraine, rai and ezza for the balloon. so touched that rachelTAN, dating partner remembered my birthday. thanks for the gift. thanks qing for your gift. and thank you too. ohoh. read jiaxin's blog! i'm QUEEN. heehee.

<33 you people. ((: hope the draw lots would turn out fine tomorrow. =X

i swear i feel damn played out.
fuck. why does today feel so ruined.